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Sunday, August 10th, 2008
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6:07 pm - "I'm just adjusting & constantly evolving, expanding & trying to stay as young as I can."
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Isaac Lee Hayes, Jr.
[ August 20, 1942 - August 10, 2008 ]
if he gave Him the Glory,
imagine. c.
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| Sunday, June 18th, 2006
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9:52 pm - A heart at peace, gives life to the body. prov. 14:30
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just wanted to give you all a update on my life as it were on the W-side. that is,
in May I began an internship while in my undergrad, with Serenity Foster Care Homes,
they are a private faith-based foster care day home & placement center.
I work in their Theraputic Learning Center, with a group of 3 to 5 year old boys
as a Theraputic Learning Aide, weekday mornings.
many of the children within TLC have been juggled throughout numerous foster
homes, & many have also been witness to severe violence, whether towards others
or at the hands of.
Our attempts are to "re-direct" the children, to help them to un-learn anger, rage and
aggressive behaviors, while creating a "sanctuary", a safe place in which they
can express and acceptedly "defuse" these behaviors.
I've also had the opportunity to shadow (learn under) and to work with a social worker
here at Serenity, in monitoring birth family visits, assesments of new clients, and so
on.
In returning back to CA after visits back home to NC/FL this summer,
Lord providing it, I may be placed on their payroll & become a paid employee.
I will be graduating this July 28th, from Azusa Pacific University
with my B.A. in Psychology (with a Counseling emphasis)
which, with no small coincidence, is also the same date as my birthday.! ^.-
i praise God for this gift, to be a small part in this space in time of helping these
little boys who I love, to realize even a bit of healing in their lifetime.
i pray all is well on your own home-front, and anticipate hearing what has been
going on in your own lives, individually. do let me know.
will you please pray for my impending grad time,
that all work will be complete before that time. ^.^
i value your prayers considerably.
His, c.
current music: jeff buckley - hallelujah
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| Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
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1:52 am - spring break, '06.
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| Monday, November 28th, 2005
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1:23 am - CFS.
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CFS.
1922 - 2005.
"For I am convinced that neither life nor death,
neither angels nor demons,
neither the present nor the future, nor any powers - neither height nor depth,
nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the Love of God that is in Christ Jesus the Lord. "
rms. 8:39-40
♥
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| Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
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11:32 pm - we were somewhere around Barstow, on the edge of the desert. . ..
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i'm gonna be leaving "for Thanksgiving" in two days, early Thurs. morning to go
up to the high desert area, Hesperia CA, with my annieboo [my former roomate].
i shall be staying at her home till Monday for the holiday with her & her folks,
who will be playing my parents.
[& tim, sir, i will be taking desert fotos.]
Hesperia is - not - Barstow, cue Fear & Loathing reference, but is the pretty same dang land area, it is cradled in the sands the Mojave River which flows N up to the high desert.
if I where, instead, "back home" this Thanksgiving in the mia 305 i would be here:
thus this post serves two purposes:
I. letting you know where i am when i'm not where i customarily am.
II. go. in my honor, please go feed your ears at this show.
grazin' in the [God's country] grass,
tongue. in. cheek.
c.
current mood:  hopeful
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| Sunday, September 4th, 2005
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1:45 am
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so things are tight with me and my II new roomies. tonite we talked & aquainted the three of us the most that we had been able to, since arriving and settling. we're just chilling here, i'm sitting here typing among my stacks of old books and jilly is settin up her totally new mac. she's got the tighest software for her music courses, they hook up music students with "multimedia packages" of Logic Pro 7 software and a keystation MIDI controller for projects & whatnot. & i'm all like "i wanna peep! !" she is also taking MIDI this semester & who knows but i will def get a chance to experiment with the program. tommarow i'm going to get to finally get hooked up with a clothing bureau from this fella justin; while for A DESK two days ago i pulled it off of these two guys' porch as they were doing remodeling & didn't want it. this is also where they had thrown a free office chair "gift" from off the balcony.
earlier today was tiiiiiight. me & the KAPU "cabinet" coherts set up a tent (as does the radio station each year) & were all day on Cougar Walk for the college freshman/transfer orientation; as this is the prim-o time to get the station promoted & to get a presence on campus. well it was crazy, & nonetheless i've shown my new Promo girl face to the APU WOOOORLD what.! [got over my big school event nay-nays this afternoon REAL QUICK.]
virginia & lisa [both also on music staff] & i totally saw pinback live in pomona last night. not bad; but different from what i imagined.
so pretty much I'm happier than I've been in a long spell. I am up to %80 wanting II kick it in c.a. after I am done with school. annnnnnd speeeakin of. ..
schedule fall 2005
PSYC 350 Applied Statistics
PSYC 362 Research Methods in Psychology
PSYC 36L Research Methods in Psychology - Lab
PSYC 390 Cognition
PSYC 450 Counseling
MATH 115 Analytical Inquiry (business math, oui?)
ya'll start feelin sorry for me, you hear?
& lerry dawgz says in 3 days,
"UP THE HIIIILL".
c.
current mood:  chillin
current music: azusa local, jason diaz - jelous distance
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| Sunday, August 28th, 2005
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1:27 am - UPDATE 4 my faaammily: & my non-blood family ♥'s!
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an eventful past few days.
on friday - I heard back from Paul, the boss/advisor to KAPU our college radio station & he's HIRED me on as Promotions Director for the 2005-2006 school year.
SHOOT! I had been praying about my desire to work with KAPU, and what's fascinating to realize is that even though I was in fact hired previously [when I couldn't return to APU, per costs] I wouldn'tve had the opportunity at an especially doper position, one which I was most interested, as it was filled at the time.
certainly, He takes away. BUT He giiiiiives.
met jill today! her & her grandmother [who was visiting, & lives in the area!] came by and it was real great to long last meet my new room-mate !
she'll be staying at the apt. as well until classes begin Sept. 7th, as there's a camp for the APU Music Dept. students before school begins which she's going to. Although Jill's is a Political Science major, her job is as a Guitar Teacher.! [ya'll see the music connection there, AIGHT. ..]
meeee, I'm gonna be part of the KAPU retreat/orientation here the next few days which begins totally at B.J.'s the famous CA pizza & brewery locale I'm always hearin' of, tommarow evening !
there's a spanish congregation which i found on an evening strooooll last night, at Foothill Community Church not a BLOCK away. HOLLAR !
i'm heading out tommarow to get a reeeeall needed B-E-D i purchased locally from a gal, but it's in the Sherman Oaks area.
our kindly neighbor Amy, who jill & i spoke with today [about the KRESTVIEW KITTY KOMPLEX we've got goin' here! "strays is ever'whuuuurs!!" as dad & mom say! well guess who'z "lovin' it!"]
anywayz, she is gonna hook it up with a ride to pick the bed up.
thank you Lord
for having given all this,
nite nite. c.
current mood:  tired
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| Saturday, July 23rd, 2005
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5:17 pm - "WELL, I'D BE MORE WORRIED ABOUT CIYY-OTES IF I WERS YOU!" - gus chiggins, old prospector.
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miami what?
Florida WHOM?
AIGHT. so i have forgotten about miami already. "IT'S A RAP!" (to quote robert goley)
we hadda ball up in ashevilles'.
the boys hit up Cherokee for trout fishin' near every other day of the 2 weeks we were there. most of the time there we spent pickin n grinnin with the grandfolks pamba & danda, and claudia and bud (aunt, uncle) came up from atlanta to spend with us.
me & jolie & her hub justin were able to get together for dinner and some chillin'.
also got to hang and brewhaha with ben and his friend austin, both who i also got to camp with @ Mt.Mitchell last summer.
david, a friend of mine who's also a PCA pastor, was able to come down on his way to ATL (for RUF staff training) and we was able to chill, so that was cool too.
AIGHT!!
tonite or otherwise RIGHT NOW, onto the train for NYC !
they're yellin at me, so
love you. c.
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| Tuesday, July 5th, 2005
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11:12 pm - God blessed the broken road, which led me straight II you.
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 treyser ©
babiez, I'm headin out for asheville tommarow morn in the wee 'hors with my pops and some of my bros. [yvonne and dev are comin later; the summer programs here are still going on for yvonne.]
will be gone july 6th-31st, in asheville then to Mystic, CT via Boston [stepmomma yvonne's family is in both places] and possibly do NYC some days. i'm actually so excited for aville I can't sleep, but the boys here nicko, trey and trey's friend laz who is totally going with us the full span of 4 weeks, they'z knocked out. the only thing on my mind besides, is this housing biz at APU for the fall. it's not mine to worry about, I sense that God has already got them in place, it's just tough in my own mind since there ain't nothing conclusive as of yet.
yoooo i will be gone celebratin my 23rrrd on july 28th! & speakin of, david i've still got your bday gift brotha, it is here dieing of inownership.
if you'd like to send any good cheer whilst away, yes do so and i &hearts you:
16 spears ave. #13
asheville, NC 28801
and i promise to send back to you a beauty of a long letter. ;]
&hearts + blessings. c.
current mood: excited
current music: bless the broken road - rascal flatts
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| Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
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1:47 am - God got the power, man's got his vanity; man gotta choose before God can set him free. b. dylan.
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to follow on the conference ..
thangs was the bomb. I learned much, in so little time. paige benton, a prominent woman "speaker" in the PCA church and could be said one of yvonne's "contemporaries" (my stepmomma. dang, the PCA is small.) paige spoke on the Kingdom, out of matt. on the BIGGER PURPOSES of our salvation, WHAT DOES MERCY MINISTRY LOOK LIKE, and the Kingdom going forth as it is. (it is?! it is!!) I remember us 4 girls comin out of her workshops astounded (era, sara?), and I'm thinkin dang now I understand the feeling of divine mind expansion. may God have His mercy on us when our actions don't keep up with our knowledge.. foril..
I also discovered I really dig black/folk spirituals and old, Reformed hymns as worship to the Lord.
[peep those composers and hymnwriters; n you can buy music off the site.!] got up on some mahalia jackson and a bluegrass hymns DVD on e-bizzle, now that I have the flo offa selling most of my textbooks already(!) via half. trey and i will be "co-selling" on ebay this summer a bunch of (new..) stuff I've had, and generally working full time with pops @ FCFC.
(as ALL of us kids have been doing these days, at home. ^.^)
school work this summer was like a cassette on fast forward; all the tape spilling out one end.
would I ever do indie. studies again; and should you? (if you have, tell me if you dug it!)
if you are hecky self-directed, one can really get into it. ideally this material is to be applied over 2X the span of time so ORGANICALLY?, still, it's tough.
i totally had to read this (beautiful!) text!!book, but made it all seem worth it. ;] 
soli deo gloria, babies
and in comes the night.
c.
 i'll be playin some of this stuff i boughts on tha show, ya'll listen plzzzzz!
current mood: optimistic
current music: ain't no man righteous (no not one) - dylan
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| Monday, May 16th, 2005
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1:54 am - da qween of 'hick hop': knowledge from both sides of da 'tracks'.
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i'm going to be gone may 16th-may 21 in panama city fl, fo ruf's summer conference.
n lurr, i got your album 1: revised and "STMMSC" (your mixed cd) in the headphones. "all day and night; in headphones" recall if i sent you my poem which had a line that effect in it?; if so would you send it to me?
today my younger bro devon turned 16; trey and i bought him a grindrail for his birthday, and got to give it to him tonite before i left.
i said goodbye on wednesday to an oldskool friend, danny who went on to spain for a year to teach engrish. it was sadface for me cause danny is tight, 'tight' first cause i've known him for 6+ years and tight because he totally introduced me to the genius of dj p and his "suck my mix" [along with dj z-trip] and their 'uneasy listening' projects. my obsession with cut/mix music is just beginning.
i understand foril, "a family who prays together, stays together".
it's a blessed thing; to have a family one can be so close to, and the way this track i'm listenin' to squarely puts, "there is One that I place above [them];
it's God that I place above [them]." that's how i feel about mah blooood.
been diggin the summer; friends and good music, between (substantial) summer course work [Luke/Acts through APU; Jazz and Pop Music in America, and Colonial Latin America, at MDC.]
in any case, this summer hope ya'll
are equally relaxed and blessed thus far.
go in,
pce! c.
current mood: hopeful
current music: i love every little thing about you - stevie wonder
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| Friday, April 22nd, 2005
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6:34 pm - how do you measure - measure a year? in inches, in miles? laughter, in strife? how about love.
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it feels awful sometimes not to be able to contact your friends.
certainly, when you have more time now to see them. gosh.
i pray everyone is becoming sustained and enduring these last few
weeks of school. and please,
call me in any free moment you have.
self note: gotta stop listening to prefuse amounts
of melancholia singer/songwriters on netscape's radio.
noteX2: "season's of love" is an idealic comfort track.
listen.
i've told lurry, and i'll say it again, ain't much better than stevie wonder.
n 'ribbon in the sky' just makes me cry.
whether or not i've seen you this week,
i've prayed for you where you're at.
love, more
c.
current mood:  melancholy
current music: season's of love - stevie wonder / cast of 'rent'
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| Monday, February 28th, 2005
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3:10 pm - c's serenity prayer.
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oh Lord, grant me the serenity to accept my given lot,
endurance in my classes, alignment in Your promising will and not my own vision,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
;]
current mood:  restless
current music: bluegrass @Netscaperadio.
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| Friday, February 18th, 2005
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1:39 am - we can pack up tommarow. tonite, let's flip a coin.
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greetings, beautiful babies of the most High.
< update />:
°. I'm attending a few classes at Florida International University this semester. among them, Intro. to Social Work, to distinguish if in fact the Lord is leading me on after college to get a Master's in Social Work. (To get a degree for my private therapy practice via an MSW at F.I.U.) but if I am to marry in a couple years and hit the mission field in rural Brazil with my five barefoot babies, and he and edit each other's short stories late into the night, over coffee.. hey, Lord knows. ^.^ de verdad.
°. i have a radio show there, doing rotation intermitten with my own stuff.
thurs. nights, 1am to 3am - listen live here.
°. today is the 60th Year anniversary of the attack on Iwo Jima in the pacific. I'm so proud. (read close.) so much so, as I pretty much would not exist today.
°. On April 9-10th is the Relay for Life (raising money for research in cancer, patient support groups and advocacy etc. et al.) i'm gettin a team together as captain, with some young folks from our church Pinelands Presbyterian. ! n out of big inspiration from my lovey, panda manda and her personal battle with brain cancer. we wanna work out into the community, to eventually bring young folks into the church and into relationship with the Lord God. more news to follow on our developments for this dope event soon.
and this is for lerry ler. ;] proof that writer's even in the illegal miami bassss city are in the struggle; to get singed a retail contract- imagine? earth words. i like that.
I babysatted tonite, two little ones! ohh some baby love. .. s'a rare event, n it was a joy and a beauty. the fact that I was going to stay and watch with and that their folks, jose and laura (leads my girl's bible study wed's.) owned Requiem for a Dream, made me realize again how it's imperative RUF should see every believing 20-something into the 21st century. i didn't stay and watch as
it was too late then,
n equally all i wanna do now is watch my eyelids.
the story of my year, chillens. c.
current mood: dor de cabeca.
current music: there she goes again - the velvet underground
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| Monday, January 17th, 2005
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12:21 am - even if I knew that tomorrow the world would go to pieces, I would still plant my apple tree. .MLK.
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©danny gregory.
Reverend Martin Luther King jr.
1929 - 1968
"All I'm saying is simply this: that all mankind is tied together; all life is interrelated, and we are all caught in an inescapable network of mutuality, tied in a single garment of identity. Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly. For some strange reason I can never be what I ought to be until you are what you ought to be. And you can never be what I ought to be until I am what I ought to be - this is the interrelated structure of reality." portion of Nobel lecture. December, 1964.
we need to properly recognize the work of MLK jr. within his short lifetime; it's reverberations should be felt unto us today, in our own time. (in many ways it has; we've some way to go.) chuck d leads the hiphop community in that reminder. ..
i wanted to cite so many more of his writings. how to start ?
tommarow, more included.
c.
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| Friday, January 7th, 2005
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12:50 am - my Father i accept this promise in the new year,giving all able-bodied glory honor + humbled praise.
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as you wait upon the Lord, you learn to see things from His perspective.
moving at His pace, you function under His directives.
waiting times are growing times, and they are learning times.
as you quiet your heart, you enter His peace;
as you sense your weakness, you receive His intended strength;
as you lay down your own will, you hear HIS CALLING you.
when you mount up ya'll, you are being lifted by the wind of His Spirit.. .
When you move ahead, you are sensitive to His timing.
When you act, you give yourself only to the things He has asked you to do.
Today may the blessings and ministry of the Lord cause you to soar even higher than the eagles.
isaiah forty: thirtyone.
They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings as eagles;
they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
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| Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
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4:34 am - I don't know about chya'll. but i know about us.
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love is now tired. it is finished.
the things of this world are not how we imagine them to be. ever.
the Lord God Almighty, He is mighty. PRAISE HIM.
PRAISE HIM.
PRAISE HIM.
PRAISE the ruler, the Lord God, the King of all mind and all creation.
and that is all that is true to me in this world.
I will not worry.
loss ... what does that mean.
love ... what does that mean.
who ever knew reality.
us: you mean so much to me. yet God is bigger.
i want nothing but the best, the beautiful
and the best for your life. it is now ok.
I know you four years well. and that is enough.
(just remember as it has been written, know the sure earnesty of that happiness
which human hope transcends.)
. ..was it was all a dream. . ...where did you go. and gosh, where ever did you come from.
i cannot imagine another boy.
there are things in life we do not explain. because we know never could.
disclaimer: this post does not reach
to anyone, but to the one who does
not even know of it's existence online (anyway). c.
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| Monday, November 22nd, 2004
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1:42 am - so long as the sun is yellow, oceans are blue. [see: music]
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this a read from a favorite author, for the soljieer fighting far off
fighting darkness, physicalities of body and mind.
batteling in the night with pens, headphones, shielding
a heart which sake of blows, seems never to cease it's bleeding.
because when ________ , poetry has you.
a poem, entitled 'TO THE KIND READER'.
No one talks more than a Poet;
Fain he'd have the people know it.
Praise or blame he ever loves;
None in prose confess an error,
Yet we do so, void of terror,
In the Muses' silent groves.
What I err'd in, what corrected,
What I suffer'd, what effected,
To this wreath as flow'rs belong;
For the aged, and the youthful,
And the vicious, and the truthful,
All are fair when viewed in song.
johann wolfgang von goethe. 1800.
Never let your head hang down. Never give up and sit down and grieve.
Find another way. And don't pray when it rains,
if you don't pray when the sun shines.
.satchel paige.
and yet, how to explain love? how to quantify, how to cast the most dire, immutable emotion into existence. ..
it is
only a chasing after the wind. a vain, meaningless task for which to live,
to die and most inexplicitly, to delineate under the sun.
eccle. 2.
yo, not much be to said about these days, they simply pass.
yet not for lack of words.
but if you're soldierin', soldier on.
c.
current mood: loving this song, everytime.
current music: i still love you - 702, brandy and pharell
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| Monday, November 15th, 2004
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1:20 am - like an instrument for a song, like the sun for tommarow's dawn.
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ODB
r.i.p
1969 - 2004
.not much to say. O.D.B was music's most colorful,innovative and unapologetically controversial artists of my time. he was getting cleaned up after his 3 year jail stint for possesion, amoung other charges, and was finishing his come-back album. certianly he was a persona for most; it could be said that his antics overshadowed his music, both life and shock ghetto lyrical skill conspicuously intuned. i'm awaiting news on the album and at 36, his untimely death.
"There's nobody like him in the game"
"He's got a lot of problems he's got to iron out, of course, but as far as a one-of-a-kind person, a one-of-a-kind artist, he's one of a generation, one of a lifetime. He's a very rare commodity."
- RZA on O.D.B.
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